oh how he loves.

singing in church this morning, i decided i'd pay attention to the actual lyrics. the song selection was most definitely up to par. the latter song is one that has the capability to bring even the darkest demons into shutter mode. it was called "oh how he loves us." the story behind the song is unheard of. but the lyrics are whew... amazing. basically referring to the moment we come face to face with the Lord and how he wraps his arms around us with relentless pursuit of just holding his children.

anyhow, as i was devouring the lyrics, i couldn't help but to imagine how much pleasure it brought to Jesus to hear us sing those words to him. i imagined him dancing unabatedly over his people; with crazy intense unmanageable choreography. few songs have lyrics that reign true to the real meaning of what it means to come face to face with Jesus and the moments intertwining throughout, but oh how he loves us...it captures the very essence of those brief moments. 

you see, i've been dislocated for so long that i somehow along the way lost my desperation for the Lord. i grew so desperate to see his face and feel his matchless love, that i became weary of it's actual existence. the ambition i had to be sought out by the Lord was overshadowed by what i saw as the lack of it. i was so determined to wait for action by Jesus that i'd dismissed my own participation in the relationship. i couldn't hear the beauty of the silence because i paid too much attention to the surrounding chaos. but he was there. waiting on me. that's what i love so much about Jesus - he doesn't push us. he will wait until we are ready; the epitome of patience he is.  

these last few months i've had the chance, well..no other option, really, but to fall silent into the arms of stillness. i've been waiting to hear what it is the Lord wants to say...all but forgetting that sometimes he just wants to hold me. so i jumped. head first. with concrete shoes on into the arms of the one who just wants to love me. to wrap his arms around his broken child and let me know that i am worth so much more than i can comprehend; that sometimes it takes lyrics written by a hurting and confused soul to explain what it is Jesus wants to tell us. 

oh how he loves us. oh how he loves us so.

much love people,

k-webb